Well, the husband is once again, flying. This one is just a night air refueling flight which is okay. At least he’ll be home sometime late tonight. He leaves for a month next week for Aircraft Commander training which is VERY exciting for him since he’s the first one in his year class to make the upgrade. We’re both sad about it though, because it’s yet another month of him being gone. I guess it’s something we’re both used to, but not something that sits well with either of us. Today was absolutely amazing; we spent it with the sun (or rather, light through the clouds) and fresh air streaming in the windows, napping and hanging out with the dogs. It just makes it that much more poignant that he’s leaving.
I think both of us are ready to have him home more. Granted, that’s not going to happen for another couple of years until we get to a different base, but it’s something we’re both looking forward to. We’re newlyweds; we want to get to spend time together. He’s my best friend and I don’t like living my life like he’s not my husband. I’ve grown so accustomed to him being gone more than he’s home that it’s harder when he IS home. I feel like a terrible person for that, but I don’t know any other way to be. We even had to get our dog a little brother so that he would stop crying every time Buddy walked out the door. If Buddy didn’t do it so often, we would have just dealt with it, but our puppy can’t be sad for 290 days a year!
It doesn’t help that we live in possibly the most depressing place in the country. I mean, I’m discovering the reason that it has the highest depression rate in the continental United States. The news station that I have on just announced that they created a “sun tracker” so we can find out when and where there will be sun and go find it. That’s how little sun there is up here. My grandma just left today… I think she believes me now when I say we have NO sun up here.
To end, I promise that not all of my blogs will be this melancholy. It’s just been so nice to have him home for a couple of days that the thought of him being gone again for a month is just not one I want to be thinking about tonight.